# 2 # ARTFULL BEGINNING….ARTLESS END

ARTFULL BEGINNING….ARTLESS END

It was getting difficult to hold it all inside my jaundiced heart so I am writing it down. Its 3.am right now and I m wide awake…. Today I had a wild chase with sleep…n I failed miserably ….. and it happened right after that dream……. That nightmare which freaked the hell out of me…
I was so helpless….. innocently speechless…… soaked in tears….. coz my beloved was leaving me forever….. I wanted to stop her….but I couldn’t even say sorry….. coz see was so annoyed that…
She wasn’t even looking at my face…… I helplessly watched her….watched her ruin my life without saying a single word…………….after all it was me who was the culprit…… I was gasping for air … almost choking… when I got up from my sleep…. When Looked around i realised that it was just a dream.. a bad dream……
This all happened in dream…. But its my daydream too, this could well be a possibility…. When she will get to know about my multicolored past… which I have been hiding from her till now….but I can stop this from happening… I still have a chance…I will go myself and will unveil everything….. after that she may or may not leave me….. but atleast I will be a relieved man….. I kept myself tossing up in bed whole night….all the while I was thinking…what to do ….how to do.. where to begin with???
Finally, I ended up dialling her number… @ 5.30 am in the morning…………………..before I proceed further… I must tell u my name is ABHAY…. N dis girl is AKSHATA…. I fondly call her ‘akku’..
Akku : hulloo……!!
Abhay : good morning baby….!! U were sleeping or what??
Akku : abbii baby… do u think I m watchman…..huh
Abhay : oh….. m so sorry…….my Watch woman……
Akku : shut up…!! U mean….pervert… what made u call me at this hour..?
Abhay : well that I cant tell you right now….. actually I wanna meet u today ASAP…
Akku : we meet almost everyday.. whats the big deal then ?
Abhay : but today its different…tell me when I can come n pick u up?
Akku : ohh sexy…. Come pick me up right away…. I m burning with your mere thought….
Abhay : hey.. stop being filmy… I m serious.
Akku : okk okk mystry man…come pick me up @ 11…
Abhay : ok… I will b there by 11,, but make sure that u r ready by then.. because I cant stand your watchman with ‘’I m goin to eat u’’ look for long. He behaves as if I m dating his wife….
Akku : okk my parmeshwar… now please lemme sleep….bye bye…
Abhay : bye honey… sleep well .
[Now I have to go ahead with my plan…. First I need to call my office…. My boss will have a short circuit in brain when he will get to know that.. I m not coming today,,,but who cares….]
[Finally it was 11… and I was right there before time……………………………………………………………………….]

Abhay : oho someone is looking damn too sexy today….!!
Akku : thanks….finally you had time to look @ me….
Anyways whats matter with u?were u sleeping with your shit faced bald boss last night?
Sorry…!!! But u r looking quite messed up…
Abhay : yes… I haven’t slept the whole night…
Akku : there u go… that means u actually were with your boss.. my doubt was right… I m so clever.
Abhay : will u please shut up…!!
Akku : okk ok then lemme guess….. u just found out that u are impotent… n that is what u r goin to talk about right now….. if this is the case,, please don’t worry,, I m way too deep in love with you ,, n for that I can manage with an impotent man….
Abhay : heyy…I know u r taking revenge….. coz I woke u up @ 5.30 am in the morning…. But don’t u realise it may be something important…..
Akku : areey nai baba…. Nothing like that… u have all rights in the world to wake me up at any point of time….i was just trying to cheer u up….
Abhay : ok… then lets go somewhere….
Akku : lets go to your apartment… I haven’t cooked for u for a long time now…
Abhay : okk… but we will talk first haan…
Akku : my goodness……. Ok we will talk first….
Lemme reach there….. I will rape u first.

[During our way back to my apartment…. I was silent ,sensing a storm I was going to bring about in our lives just few moments later…. N meanwhile she too perhaps guessed that something was horrendously wrong ………
But she kept her cool,, like any girl does in tough situations.and she kept trying, to make me feel normal. After reaching ,,,,,she straightaway rushed to the kitchen… n asked if I wanted tea or coffe….i followed her upto the kitchen………realising that I was tensed, she holded me in her arms…..n asked what it was that’s botering me……]
Abhay : I had a bad dream tonight…. A scary one…. I saw u were leaving me … forever….
Akku : is that bothering you? I thought u trusted me….
Abhay : no,,, actually there is something which can make you do so…. N since I can not afford to loose you… I have decided that I will let you know everything… I cant keep it in my heart anymore, its killing me.
Akku : I cant believe this…. U kept a secret…….[n she went speechless]
Abhay : I m sorry but…. I did it….. but now I will face it… u may decide later on what to do…
Akku : okk… go on… I don’t have a choice….
Abhay : 10 years ago I wasn’t the same person that I m today..
With the onset of my teenage… things became beautiful.. biologically beautiful. I believe I was born with some extra shot of testosterone in my blood. Those days,, I had a feeling for every beautiful girl I knew, I wanted to date them n mate them…..there had been times when I dated 3 girls at a single time,, n was emotionally available for even next one …. I was just so casual about all this…
But something happened…. Something seriously wrong … which changed my world n me completely…
Akku : n what was that something….
Abhay : there was a girl “ summer “… she loved me …n loved me lik crazy…we were in a relationship for almost 7 long years,,,, on one side her love for me grew with each passing day & on other side my fears… coz I never loved her. I don’t know what made me stuck to that relationship for so long, but I did it.i m a damn good liar n I have an extra fertile imagination.. to back it up… so I was never caught….. she never had any idea that I was cheating on her.
One day she told me that she was going to introduce myself to her family members.though I promised but I dindnt turn up……………………………………………………………………………………………..
And it cleared everything off in her mind,she realised it all…n she didn’t ask me anything.. she just left the scene without uttering a single word………
And this is what killed me inside…. Coz feelings are best expressed when they are left unexpressed. She should have yelled over me, should have abused me…. But she simply did nothing…. And my guilt kept on rising and rising…….
Things started flashing in my mind….. all those beautiful hearts that I broke for no reason. I started having nightmares ,, all of them used to come in my dreams n used to abuse me,, spit at me…I spent a series of sleepless nights.i realized how sick n what a jerk I was…………………………………………………….
Reality downed upon my mind, n I wanted to change.so,, for 3 long years I kept myself in seclusion, away from everything. No girls, no cellphone, no social networking sites, no parties…….. I simply worked for my own future…. N took care of my family.
It took me three years to figure out what I wanted with life…… what type of job, girl, life….. blah blah,,,
I got my job. I repaired personal relationships which I had forgotten over time. N then u happened to me.the most beautiful thing ever happened to me. I saw you n I was sure that yes you are the one. You are the one with whom I can spend rest of my life, holding hand in hand, without looking at any other thing, any other girl……. N I have maintained it …. N I promise to maintain it till the end of time…….but its upto u to decide.

Akku : yes definitely….now I have to decide…{she had a rock solid expression over face and eyes were filled tears.}

[She said dose words n she simply walked out……and it was happening for the second time…. She should have said something……….
She should have yelled at me, she should have abused me.. but she said nothing……………………….
I felt as if my heart stopped beating…but I deserved all this,, this is something called ‘’nemesis””
i.e; Natures punishment, you break a million heart n a single heartbreak would finish your world.
I should have realised that a 3 year of seclusion, wouldn’t make me a saint,, I would be judged by what I did,, and what I did was a sin. N I m a sinner by all angles of imagination ………………………………
I was every inch responsible for where I have brought myself into.
With all these constipated feelings n overpouring emotions…. I kept myself locked up in my room for 3 long days… finally my door bell rang.
I opened the door and I found my akku…. Carrying a big bag……………………….i was standing there puzzled …didn’t know what to say……she pushed herself inside……]

Akku : sorry for being so late to announce my decision…… though I made it then and there that day itself…… but you know such decisions are for lifetime………. So……………… i………………………
Abhay :I understand,, its obvious for you…… but where are you going with this bag. Even if you will stay in this city I wouldn’t bother you.
Akku : I m not going anywhere…………. I have just moved in here to live with you… for ever.
Samjhe lalluuu………….
Abhay : [didn’t believe his ears….]
What? What did you just say? That means you are not leaving me…?
Akku : yes…..how can I leave you. Though it’s a black and white no brainer that flirting is wrong…. But I cant judge you by what you were….. what you are is more important to me.
Akku : all my life I wished to marry someone who is clear about his thoughts, emotions and feelings….and that day with your confession you made it loud and clear that no matter what comes in life you will always be on my side………………….n do you think I will let go of you….
You never loved those girls, because I m the lucky one, I m destined to get you………………………..
Lets get married honey…!!!
Abhay : r u sure?
Akku : sure……..right away sir…!! You can see I already left my home.
[Both of them holds eachother n cries together….. as if they haven’t met for years………………..]
Akku : before that, I need to ask you one thing..
Abhay : what?
Akku : {with a notorious smile}
Do you need to get HIV test done,I mean I cant risk my life………..
Abhay : shut up…… I know I was bad, but I wasn’t a vampire….. I just played n penetrated hearts …nothing else…………..[smiles]
Akku : uh swetu……………..[gives him a tight hug n both of them bursts into a laughter……………]