Happy New Year..........!!!!

Aao es “NAV VARSHA” par kuch aisa karein ki……….


Saari paheliyaan sulajh jaayein………
Raaston ko aankhein nahi ,,, dil mahsoos karey…..
Aur kadam khud aagey badh jayein…………………………!!!

Hamesha dil karey kuch ganey ko ……….
Yun hi sahi, par muskuraney ko ………….!!

Na raatoon ko ho intzaar subah ho janey ka ……
Na subah,,, din dhal janey ka intzaar ho…………….
Kuch aisa karo,,,, ki har pal suhana lagey……………
Har pal mein pyar ho……………
Aur uss pyar pe , khud se zyada aitbaar ho……………………..!!

Jaise....Sheetal ho zindgi subah ki tarah,,,,,,
Taki dopahar ki garmi se bhi kuch rahat miley,,,,,,,
Kali raaatein bhi kuch es kadar nashili ho….…….ki
Mann karey kuch romantic gungunaney…ko……….
AUR Har sham Dil karey….. “ghar “ jaldi laut janey ko……………..

AUTO IMMUNE LOVE.... ..sometime love kills......

sometimes you choose yourself to screw your life....how???


## 1 ##.... conversation ….between two strangers

{tarun dials a number and a girl’s voice appears on the other side.}
Girl : hulloo !!
Tarun :hi happy Diwali….
Girl : same to you………….and thanx a lot….but I m so sorry…. May I know who is calling..?
Tarun : [nervous smile …with a streak of fear] …unanimous….. a stranger…
Girl : hmm..that case ,, I m so sorry…. I don’t entertain stranger’s call… I fear I will have to disconnect
Tarun: hey ,,wait… what ,if I say dat we have been together at a place before.. I mean you hav seen me..
Girl :[irritated voice] look mr. xyz ,,,whoever you are…. Either tell me who you are or…. I will…
Tarun : ok…before I tell you who I am,,I must tell you that whatever I am doing… I am doing for the first time….this is not something I have done before….. I am a shy and introvert guy….
Girl : …huummm….ok… u may be as shy as miss universe… but I m least bothered …plz don’t piss me off…
Its Diwali today and I am not in a mood to break any body’s skull….
tarun : easy girl easy….!!
Look, I m not a loafer ….everybody who knows me…would vouch for me and my honesty..
Girl : {irritated}…oh just eff off………u are nuts….. I m disconnecting it…………
Tarun : heyy plz wait….what if you find out that you have really been with me…for as long as 20 hours……………..
Girl : well in that case .. I promise,, I would talk to you for whatever length you want me to……….
Tarun : well….. My name is tarun…..Tarun Mishra. I saw you in R.G.EXPRESS on 02/02/2010... coach-7,seat number 8…..actually mine was seat number 7….if u remember.
Girl : god !! you are impossible… you saw me in a train and you claim that I know you….
By the way…how in the world you have my phone number..?
Tarun : {smiles.}…..hmm…may be my lady-luck has something to do with this…..
Though I have your number..but I still don’t know your name….what you do..where you live…and anything or everything…….now that u know me and as u have already promised that you will talk to me,, I want to know them all.
Girl : my dear tarun… lady luck is not pleased with you at all….you have my phone number..but that doesn’t mean that.. I know you or I am answerable to u….am so sorry….
Tarun :hey.. you promised that you would talk to me…..
Girl : yeah… but the condition got void… I don’t know you…. Aur vaise bhi….promises are meant to be broken…
Tarun : I m sorry….i know I m bothering you..but please don’t do this to me…you cant even imagine how painstaking it was to manage even your phone number…
Girl : sorry boss !!.. I appreciate your effort…..just loved this part… but I cant help it…. I just cant spoil my Diwali with a complete stranger….anyways..happy Diwali… have fun..bye….!!

[ the line went dead………………and tarun was still holding his phone.. still mesmerised with her voice….as if her voice would come again….and would lit up his Diwali..]


## 2 ##............... Tarun’s ……[02/02/2010]

I was at Gorakhpur station along with two of my friends ,waiting for my train in the waiting room. A “girl”, cute one, infact cutest one…wearing jeans jacket and a stole around her neck,was like only one and only thing I was busy looking at ,during my entire stay at Gorakhpur station….suddenly my train was announced and I had to abort my romantic plot….i rushed to loo to freshen up….and when I came back ..she was already gone……. Aah !!! it was so sad....
Three of us had our seats….in two different wagons,,Don’t know what,but something came to my mind… and I asked my friend to exchange seats and I got into his compartment..and what I saw there was so unbelievable and so beautiful and so exciting…she was there sitting in the same compartment….
I was so thrilled … I thanked god and thanked my own decision of rightfully boarding the wrong coach.
I don’t need to tell you people that….by then I was neck deep in love with her….so much so..that I couldn’t muster the courage to talk to her…because I didn’t want to annoy her and spoil my chances.. I was being so careful.. all the while I only saw her through the corners of my eyes…she was so beautiful..calm ..composed..with every passing second ..my love grew for her…bigger and bigger……….its said if you look at your love from a distance, like a helpless creature,, your love multiplies and multiplies exponentially…
I wanted to say “hi” to her…wanted to ask her name….wanted to make her realise how much miserable she has made the things for me…. Wanted to tell her how I have scanned her almost thousand times,from head to toe, that I could even write a book on each of that….. wanted to take her in my arms and say that she was the one,only one I wanted to spend my whole life with……….
The whole arcane idea of love at first sight was so foolproof now ..so wieldy…
But throughout the journey… I remained tight lipped, I couldn’t say anything… my ass was like glued to my seat… she must have mistaken me as a deaf and dumb…..or may be she didn’t even notice me even though I was sitting at an arm’s distance…[.i m so useless] .and finally train reached my station …..so heavy footed and heavy hearted I was,but had to get off the train…it seemed as if I was leaving my newlywed wife for some war…
But ..to my surprise, I was enjoying my own miserable condition…it was a complete bizarre situation….because ..perhaps I was in love ..every inch of me was in love….
From the reservation chart I found out that she was going to dehradoon. There was a ray of hope to get her phone number….because one of the fellow passengers ,a lady, called up her husband by her cell phone to inform that the train was late by 3 hours….so,,seeing it as a ray of hope.. I friended her son and asked about his school …house….address …everything.and next day I was at dehradoon… searched and successfully searched that ladies’ home….
Explained her,,pleaded her,,, implored her….. and finally she looked up in her call records and gave me her number …… It made me feel as if ..i have got a novel prize in love….i was so happy…..but ahead, there was the real task and I decided to call her up on Diwali….
[I called her up and you people have already witnessed how my love story got derailed . . even before getting a start…….]
3 days later. . I got a call…yes, , I got a call from her….she called up…..


## 3 ##.... love actually……..


“who are you man….what are you”, she said. You have made me so restless…. Since last three days.. I m not able to think anything but you….even the idea of the pain and effort that u must have had in trying to get my number frightens me….how you managed it..?? I must say I am touched… and I want to meet you…….you won.
I couldn’t believe my ears. ”yeah”, said i. only that much I could say …….i was so happy..
We met.we met again….and we met again & again……
{And yeah..her name is “sonam”}
Love was in the air…it was in her…in me…..infact it was everywhere…suddenly life seemed so beautiful and so happening…we were completely overtaken by the euphoria of love……
[ we never realised it then that a disaster was looming around the corner….]
{one day both of us were lying in each others arm….}
Tarun : sonam..!!
Sonam : huhh….
Tarun : do you know what I do?
Sonam : you are some officer with indian government……
Tarun : not some officer…. I work for CBI.
Sonam :oh dat’s so hot ….. I never realised that my sweetie is a bond..james bond…!!
Tarun : but the sad part is that i will have to go out of the city for some time…its important… u promise to me that u will take care of yourself…
Sonam :[apprehensively] is it important..?
Tarun : hmmm……it is.
Sonam : okk…. Go… but do come back soon… I cant live without you anymore….a single moment would be like a lifetime.

[and he went away perhaps never to return again…]


## 4 ## sonam’s ………….

It was already a month since he left..and there was no news of him….. no call,, no letter..nothing..
I was deluged with…frightening thoughts …..
Is he dead? Has he cheated on me? Was he a philander ?
His cell phone was switched off. I tried to look around for him but only without any piece of success. when I contacted CBI office, they denied that there was any Tarun Mishra….I thought that CBI people never reveals anything….but somehow I was convinced that I was cheated ,, I realised that I was fooled….. there was enormous pain and anguish in every bit of me…..for so many days and so many nights I kept myself locked in my room…unable to decide what to do….all the scene was flashin in my mind…how we talked..how he touched me..where he touched me..& I bathed almost a thousand times just to get rid of him , his touch, his smell, his feelings….i wanted to clean myself.
More I felt cheated, more I wanted a revenge…..a vengeance….
And there came a bolt from the blue….i realised that I was missing my period by 2 weeks….i was pregnant….
Now I had two options….either to kill myself or to kill this baby….the filth,the sin ,the betrayal that was multiplying inside my body. but I did nothing…because I wanted to teach that bastard a lesson…so instead of him,I choose his baby to suffer….i started to eat minimum food. .so that the baby would get starved, I hurt myself so that this baby would get hurt.. only aim left in my life was to make that growing filth endure.with every passing second I made it sure that the baby inside me was suffering…even the god must have repented his decision to choose me as her mother….it gave me enormous joy…..TIT FOR TAT….
And slowly five months passed. I was waiting for the baby to grow mature enough to actually feel the pain, the real pain…which I was going through,,,….and when I was convinced that the baby has got his body parts and his senses developed… my ultimate gruesome plan was there…,one day I hurt myself in my lower abdomen with a pair of scissors….i was in a pool of blood.painfully happy… I didn’t care about my own death….. because..my revenge was more important than my own life… till the last conscious second i saw blood…baby was dieing…. I was relieved.
And when I regained my consciousness… I was in a hospital….i wondered ..who took me to the hospital…..still I was so happy and so painfully relieved of that lump.
but I had a devastating truth waiting for me. Tarun was there waiting outside…he came inside,,looked pale and weak.
He came running and hugged me…and started crying inconsolably….and I was numb… not sure what to do…. Whether to live or die. whether to laugh or cry..
“I m sorry”, he said. I was on a secret mission,when I was taken hostage by some Maoists…. I wasn’t sure if I would make it and would see you again….but god was with me… …. I m so sorry..!! I m so sorry…!! I know what you must have gone through all these days.
Only thing that was coming to mind was my baby… my innocent baby…. My love…. My part…whom I killed…whom I should have nurtured with my own blood..i gave him a bloody death…. How cruel….i wanted to die………………life had turned so ugly…. I held his arms and slapped him a number of times….and all I was saying was - “why you didn’t come on time…. I murdered our baby…my baby…. I killed him..now I will kill myself… I cant forgive myself…. I want to die..”
He was motionless….expressionless….wordless….i couldn’t dare to look into his eyes.how a mother could kill her own child.i wondered if I was a devil or a human being…..i was crying…and I fell unconscious,,in my subconscious mind I saw a baby…cute one.. sleeping close to me,, close to my chest,, he was looking at me with his little eyes…his fingers curled around mine….and he said… ”what happened was destined to happen maa…it was not anybody’s fault … but if you would do anything to yourself….this time you would deliberately kill my innocent papa…because he cant live without you…..””
When I regained my consciousness,I found tarun beside me, his arms around me and he was sobbing.
“I don’t know why god punished us”, he said. Perhaps he didn’t want me to be so happy.But u promise me that you would never leave me,, because I cant live without you sonam. Please don’t ever leave me… for the sake of our love…. Our baby….yeah sonam our baby….god cant be so cruel to us….to our love…our baby is still there,,inside you….he is listening to us…he is safe…..!!
i need you sonam ,, I cant live without you,,,,promise me that you would be there with me till the end of time….
I held him close to my heart….. he was crying…. I was crying…. Everything was crying………………..

EVEN A SNAKE CAN BE POISONED.........

HAZARON KHWAHISHEIN AISI..KI HAR KHWAHISH PE DUM NIKLEY…………………………………………………… ............................. BAHUT NIKLE MERE ARMAAN LEKIN PHIR BHI KUM NIKLEY………………..

Every sane and insane person in this world always has a piece of an advice in mind for girls----‘’ don’t step out when its dark outside”….
But this theory didn’t work in my case even when I choose the bright day light………
even in the clearest of daylight I couldn’t see few ugly, dark souls around….who were tightening there grip around my neck.
well..........I am pakhi…..a girl,,,ironically a beautiful GIRL. A girl with a bruised soul…..& a heart ..that only pumps blood and a brain full of jaundiced images and thoughts.no feelings,,no pain...its just plain....blanck.
God has given me a lead role in one of the ugliest dramas he has ever plotted.
But things in my life too,were normal,, everything around was beautifully created and perfectly placed until just sometime ago . i finished my graduation ,,,cleared CAT,,, n got through one of the top B-schools ……..dream accomplished. But it was just a start.....starting of a cruel drama.
To achieve my piece of success I perfectly refrained myself away from every fancies and fantasies of all kind…. But now I was raring to go…..all set to live life in my own way…. The way I have always wanted and dreamed it to be…….
And right then happened the most beautiful thing of my life…..” kabeer” an utterly romantic.. simple sober guY……………………………..I was in love with him the moment I saw him……. He “WAS” perfect by every angles of imagination…… he lacked only one thing out of all those “must to have” things…which ,in my case ,a boy needed to pass with flying colors……. But he was arguably best ….extremely irrestible…
And all he needed was a motor bike to qualify….. so I gifted him one…. And then Started a never ending love story………….{then I never thought that… one day this bike would take away everything from me….. almost everything……}
I always wanted to go for a bike ride holding my love close to my heart ….so it was like every now and then…when everwe had time when we used to hit the city roads…. Sometimes we covered even.. hundreds of kilometres in one stretch….
Then came the black bloody Sunday…..came so sweetly …. And so silently. again we were on the wheels….we were driving for almost an hour . Suddenly we realised that some half dozen people are following us on bikes…..and within no time we were surrounded…..
i was scared like hell….they made us stop…. Took away bike keys…. And asked us to give away our cell phones….. it all happened without us uttering a single word…… ……
Then suddenly…. One of them stepped forward n slapped kabeer across his face….. and started pouring out his moral policing lessons….. until then I thought it was normal case of robbery… but things changed its course to a gruesome direction….
After thrashing kabeer a couple of times they asked him to run away…. His face turned pale… unsure what to do next….. but I prayed him to leave….. otherwise they would have hurt him for sure…..one of them forced him to leave the scene and warned him not to inform police….otherwise they would make sure that I was not returning…….and he was gone…..then they took me to a stinking ,,secluded place…….it smelled of death….. smelled of horror.
I prayed for forgiveness but none listened……one of them took away my cell phone ….and said—
‘’ bahut jawani chadhi hai….”hmmmm. abhi tumhare baap ko phone laga ke batayein ki uski beti ka rape ho raha hai”
I flung myself to his feet and started crying…… plz don’t do this… plz my paa is a heart patient… he cant stand this setback……plz forgive me…. Plz let me go…..i will do whatever u would say…. Buut please keep my paa out of this.i beg…. Please. And I kept crying.i knew I was in trouble……. Neck deep In trouble.
‘’Chalo utho…..’’said he….. tumko lesson toh sikhana padega na…. cooperate karogi toh…. Kuchh nai hoga…. Subah vapas pahuncha denge.vaise bhi tum toh modern ho…. Kafi experience hoga.
I cried and cried…. And cried…..and just to alleviate the pain consciously fell unconscious..
For the next few hours what exactly happened is beyond words to describe… they came one after one and emptied their manhood inside me….one came again and again……… longest endless night.
I kept my eyes closed….. as I didn’t want to remember their faces…. Every bit of me was in pain…. I experienced a new definition of pain….
On my way back to hostel in a van I was almost unconscious. I locked myself in my room for a number of days I don’t remember…… all the while I was feeling sinful….. impure….. dirt and filth growing inside …sperms moving and multiplying inside my body and eating away every bit of me…..
Days…. Passed then weeks…I didn’t had the courage to meet kabeer…. Neither he showed up…. And suddenly one day he was gone…. He killed himself…..
And I didn’t feel anything…. May be because I was already dead… I wanted to cry but fell short of tears….all I felt was a big piece of heavy stone over my chest…. Which was not letting me breathe… I wanted to finish my life …. But I wasn’t brave enough like kabeer.i wasn’t sure as to why the hell I was even living…………
Then suddenly one day I found why I was….when a classmate of mine Aditya came to me….and asked me to have a look at an mms in his cellphone…… and I freezed…. The whole world spun around me in a moment…. Suddenly everything was clear.
[During the very first week of college days…. Aditya proposed me….. and I vehemently refused. But he kept on imploring me…. And one day he just crossed his limit….he distributed marriage cards with my name encrypted over it along with him. That was the limit….. I went berserk…. N slapped him in public.{ didn’t realize it then that this slap was going to ruin me …]
Aditya revealed his ugly plans of revenge, without any mark of shame over his face …how he used to tipp off about our whereabouts to his friends whenever we were out…. How they made a collusion…… a gruesome plan to rob me off my dignity……. A beautifully crafted ugly plan of revenge.
So this was it…. Catch them, thrash them……..n………
And he was the director of the game….
“I was waiting for you to come out of your shell…. baby“ said he. But you took a lot of time. Anyways I will come to pick you up tonight at 8 pm. Make sure that you are ready on time. Remember a single sound and your mms is out there in… public ….. your choice though.but mind it you aren’t left with any choice ……and he left.
Suddenly I was flooded with a number of thoughts…..feelings …. Anger…. Disgust…..my head was spinning like never before……but I controlled myself….. it was now my turn to be vindictive……. And I too had a plan.
I went to market …. Bought a sthetoscope and an apron… and directly headed for a nearby medical college….after having done with my job… I went back to the hostel n waited…waited like never before.
He came right on the time and within a couple of minutes we were in a hotel room.it was time for me to play my cards…….
“Look aditya….” Said I, I m sorry for what I did to u months ago…. But things are really changed now…with kabeer having left the scene already I too need someone to take care of my biological needs. I will come to you whenever you would say…. But all you need is to promise me that you will remain gentle and wouldn’t hurt me.
[its said that if you have a beautiful face and a vagina……. U can rule the world. Theory worked here as well. the prospect of fucking me every night without any trouble….. blinded this dog…..]
He agreed at once. “Now u sound reasonable” said he.
I smiled and said….can u get us some vodka please …. I want to alleviate my pain and enjoy life once again…….
He jumped in excitement and within moments we had our spirits high….. but I managed to stay in control…..because I had a plan,
I was being raped again…….and this time i was filming this bloody game in my camera…..
Moments later that tipsy bastard…fell unconscious…..completely overtaken by drug and desire….. and immediately I swung myself into action… opened my purse…. Took out a syringe filled with a bloody liquid..and pumped it all inside his body.and I left the hotel room.
Next day I called him up and invited him for a coffee.he showed up before time. There I told him how miserable his life was going to be….how I poured in millions of AIDS virus ,taken from an aids patient inside his body….. reminded him of how he was goin to die slowly…..and handed over to him a cd of my own rape filmed last night…. So that he could figure out how he kissed his own death.
And a snake was poisoned.
Every thing is fair in love and war….i was relieved…..


Masoom mohabbat ka Bas itna sa fasana hai,
Kagaz ki haveli hai aur baarish ka zamaana hai,
Kya shart-e-mohabbat hai Kya shart-e-zamaana hai,
Awaaz bhi zakhmi hai ,Aur geet bhi gaana hai,
Us paar utarne ki Ummeed bahut kam hai,
Kasti bhi puraani hai Aur toofan ko bhi aana hai,
Samjhe ya na samjhe wo Andaaz mohabbat ke,
Ek shaks ko ankhon se Dil ka haal sunana hai,
Bholi si adaa Phir koi ishq ki zid pe hai
Fir aag ka dariya hai …………………….Aur doob ke jaana hai…..

Rain friend.........!!!

this little creation of mine is about a person who just found a friend in "RAINDROPS"
As it gave him the liberty to cry....to cry out louder....without being caught...
Because sometimes even a mere pain is damn too personal..........................


RAIN FRIEND
Today its raining……………..insideout..!!
No place to go………………No hideout..

Just want to get rid off my pain….
So I decided to face the rain………

Storm in heart…………eyes are greasy…
Brain is dead……but,, am walkin easy ….
Coz….
I can feel now…… I can cry………………
As raindrops has come down to join my eyes………………

# 2 # ARTFULL BEGINNING….ARTLESS END

ARTFULL BEGINNING….ARTLESS END

It was getting difficult to hold it all inside my jaundiced heart so I am writing it down. Its 3.am right now and I m wide awake…. Today I had a wild chase with sleep…n I failed miserably ….. and it happened right after that dream……. That nightmare which freaked the hell out of me…
I was so helpless….. innocently speechless…… soaked in tears….. coz my beloved was leaving me forever….. I wanted to stop her….but I couldn’t even say sorry….. coz see was so annoyed that…
She wasn’t even looking at my face…… I helplessly watched her….watched her ruin my life without saying a single word…………….after all it was me who was the culprit…… I was gasping for air … almost choking… when I got up from my sleep…. When Looked around i realised that it was just a dream.. a bad dream……
This all happened in dream…. But its my daydream too, this could well be a possibility…. When she will get to know about my multicolored past… which I have been hiding from her till now….but I can stop this from happening… I still have a chance…I will go myself and will unveil everything….. after that she may or may not leave me….. but atleast I will be a relieved man….. I kept myself tossing up in bed whole night….all the while I was thinking…what to do ….how to do.. where to begin with???
Finally, I ended up dialling her number… @ 5.30 am in the morning…………………..before I proceed further… I must tell u my name is ABHAY…. N dis girl is AKSHATA…. I fondly call her ‘akku’..
Akku : hulloo……!!
Abhay : good morning baby….!! U were sleeping or what??
Akku : abbii baby… do u think I m watchman…..huh
Abhay : oh….. m so sorry…….my Watch woman……
Akku : shut up…!! U mean….pervert… what made u call me at this hour..?
Abhay : well that I cant tell you right now….. actually I wanna meet u today ASAP…
Akku : we meet almost everyday.. whats the big deal then ?
Abhay : but today its different…tell me when I can come n pick u up?
Akku : ohh sexy…. Come pick me up right away…. I m burning with your mere thought….
Abhay : hey.. stop being filmy… I m serious.
Akku : okk okk mystry man…come pick me up @ 11…
Abhay : ok… I will b there by 11,, but make sure that u r ready by then.. because I cant stand your watchman with ‘’I m goin to eat u’’ look for long. He behaves as if I m dating his wife….
Akku : okk my parmeshwar… now please lemme sleep….bye bye…
Abhay : bye honey… sleep well .
[Now I have to go ahead with my plan…. First I need to call my office…. My boss will have a short circuit in brain when he will get to know that.. I m not coming today,,,but who cares….]
[Finally it was 11… and I was right there before time……………………………………………………………………….]

Abhay : oho someone is looking damn too sexy today….!!
Akku : thanks….finally you had time to look @ me….
Anyways whats matter with u?were u sleeping with your shit faced bald boss last night?
Sorry…!!! But u r looking quite messed up…
Abhay : yes… I haven’t slept the whole night…
Akku : there u go… that means u actually were with your boss.. my doubt was right… I m so clever.
Abhay : will u please shut up…!!
Akku : okk ok then lemme guess….. u just found out that u are impotent… n that is what u r goin to talk about right now….. if this is the case,, please don’t worry,, I m way too deep in love with you ,, n for that I can manage with an impotent man….
Abhay : heyy…I know u r taking revenge….. coz I woke u up @ 5.30 am in the morning…. But don’t u realise it may be something important…..
Akku : areey nai baba…. Nothing like that… u have all rights in the world to wake me up at any point of time….i was just trying to cheer u up….
Abhay : ok… then lets go somewhere….
Akku : lets go to your apartment… I haven’t cooked for u for a long time now…
Abhay : okk… but we will talk first haan…
Akku : my goodness……. Ok we will talk first….
Lemme reach there….. I will rape u first.

[During our way back to my apartment…. I was silent ,sensing a storm I was going to bring about in our lives just few moments later…. N meanwhile she too perhaps guessed that something was horrendously wrong ………
But she kept her cool,, like any girl does in tough situations.and she kept trying, to make me feel normal. After reaching ,,,,,she straightaway rushed to the kitchen… n asked if I wanted tea or coffe….i followed her upto the kitchen………realising that I was tensed, she holded me in her arms…..n asked what it was that’s botering me……]
Abhay : I had a bad dream tonight…. A scary one…. I saw u were leaving me … forever….
Akku : is that bothering you? I thought u trusted me….
Abhay : no,,, actually there is something which can make you do so…. N since I can not afford to loose you… I have decided that I will let you know everything… I cant keep it in my heart anymore, its killing me.
Akku : I cant believe this…. U kept a secret…….[n she went speechless]
Abhay : I m sorry but…. I did it….. but now I will face it… u may decide later on what to do…
Akku : okk… go on… I don’t have a choice….
Abhay : 10 years ago I wasn’t the same person that I m today..
With the onset of my teenage… things became beautiful.. biologically beautiful. I believe I was born with some extra shot of testosterone in my blood. Those days,, I had a feeling for every beautiful girl I knew, I wanted to date them n mate them…..there had been times when I dated 3 girls at a single time,, n was emotionally available for even next one …. I was just so casual about all this…
But something happened…. Something seriously wrong … which changed my world n me completely…
Akku : n what was that something….
Abhay : there was a girl “ summer “… she loved me …n loved me lik crazy…we were in a relationship for almost 7 long years,,,, on one side her love for me grew with each passing day & on other side my fears… coz I never loved her. I don’t know what made me stuck to that relationship for so long, but I did it.i m a damn good liar n I have an extra fertile imagination.. to back it up… so I was never caught….. she never had any idea that I was cheating on her.
One day she told me that she was going to introduce myself to her family members.though I promised but I dindnt turn up……………………………………………………………………………………………..
And it cleared everything off in her mind,she realised it all…n she didn’t ask me anything.. she just left the scene without uttering a single word………
And this is what killed me inside…. Coz feelings are best expressed when they are left unexpressed. She should have yelled over me, should have abused me…. But she simply did nothing…. And my guilt kept on rising and rising…….
Things started flashing in my mind….. all those beautiful hearts that I broke for no reason. I started having nightmares ,, all of them used to come in my dreams n used to abuse me,, spit at me…I spent a series of sleepless nights.i realized how sick n what a jerk I was…………………………………………………….
Reality downed upon my mind, n I wanted to change.so,, for 3 long years I kept myself in seclusion, away from everything. No girls, no cellphone, no social networking sites, no parties…….. I simply worked for my own future…. N took care of my family.
It took me three years to figure out what I wanted with life…… what type of job, girl, life….. blah blah,,,
I got my job. I repaired personal relationships which I had forgotten over time. N then u happened to me.the most beautiful thing ever happened to me. I saw you n I was sure that yes you are the one. You are the one with whom I can spend rest of my life, holding hand in hand, without looking at any other thing, any other girl……. N I have maintained it …. N I promise to maintain it till the end of time…….but its upto u to decide.

Akku : yes definitely….now I have to decide…{she had a rock solid expression over face and eyes were filled tears.}

[She said dose words n she simply walked out……and it was happening for the second time…. She should have said something……….
She should have yelled at me, she should have abused me.. but she said nothing……………………….
I felt as if my heart stopped beating…but I deserved all this,, this is something called ‘’nemesis””
i.e; Natures punishment, you break a million heart n a single heartbreak would finish your world.
I should have realised that a 3 year of seclusion, wouldn’t make me a saint,, I would be judged by what I did,, and what I did was a sin. N I m a sinner by all angles of imagination ………………………………
I was every inch responsible for where I have brought myself into.
With all these constipated feelings n overpouring emotions…. I kept myself locked up in my room for 3 long days… finally my door bell rang.
I opened the door and I found my akku…. Carrying a big bag……………………….i was standing there puzzled …didn’t know what to say……she pushed herself inside……]

Akku : sorry for being so late to announce my decision…… though I made it then and there that day itself…… but you know such decisions are for lifetime………. So……………… i………………………
Abhay :I understand,, its obvious for you…… but where are you going with this bag. Even if you will stay in this city I wouldn’t bother you.
Akku : I m not going anywhere…………. I have just moved in here to live with you… for ever.
Samjhe lalluuu………….
Abhay : [didn’t believe his ears….]
What? What did you just say? That means you are not leaving me…?
Akku : yes…..how can I leave you. Though it’s a black and white no brainer that flirting is wrong…. But I cant judge you by what you were….. what you are is more important to me.
Akku : all my life I wished to marry someone who is clear about his thoughts, emotions and feelings….and that day with your confession you made it loud and clear that no matter what comes in life you will always be on my side………………….n do you think I will let go of you….
You never loved those girls, because I m the lucky one, I m destined to get you………………………..
Lets get married honey…!!!
Abhay : r u sure?
Akku : sure……..right away sir…!! You can see I already left my home.
[Both of them holds eachother n cries together….. as if they haven’t met for years………………..]
Akku : before that, I need to ask you one thing..
Abhay : what?
Akku : {with a notorious smile}
Do you need to get HIV test done,I mean I cant risk my life………..
Abhay : shut up…… I know I was bad, but I wasn’t a vampire….. I just played n penetrated hearts …nothing else…………..[smiles]
Akku : uh swetu……………..[gives him a tight hug n both of them bursts into a laughter……………]

# 1 # my first story....

hey i m posting my first story.... completed it in around n hour or so nd since its first so its not goin to be my best ...so hope u all will give me benefit of doubt in case u dont li it.....here it goes

When plan went awry…..
Whats d biggest day in a boy’s life ?
His b’dy?
Graduation day?
…………………………………………….
No…its his girlfriend’s b’day.
N its true for all those boys who are neck deep in love…..wid their so called beloved.
I know a couple,,deeply in love,,a perfect amorous couple .
Manish…..n d lady is dimple.

Manish is very excited….no its not anything to do with him…its his sweety’s b’dy next week. He has been thinking n thinking for quite some time now,but hasn’t managed to come up wid his final plan to make it a grand one….he is so helpless…
no he do have a long list of friends… but all of them are next to being useless…but none can complain…. Coz if u r studyin in an all boys college….. d whole concept of love seems to be so foreign….so these supercharged alpha males….without any experience of love ,areof no gud use…..in that sense manish is so lucky….he has one n he has the best one….
But he has to come up with his plan soon… coz he already overheard dimple speakin to her friend…about how he was supposed to make this b’dy of her a most special one….
Yes….internet..u get all d solution dere….he jumped..n googled “ how to impress a girl on her b’dy”.
N what he got…” a million dozen crazy ideas about how to make someone pregnant….”
But dis man is no dumbass….he kept on thinking…… n finally decided to go the traditional way……
Beautiful Boquet-> lovely card-> romantic movie -> dinner-.> n a surprise gift.
His imagination is on fool swing….he checked n cross checked his plans ….. so funny… I don’t think that even the dumbest can ever forget such a simple..thing…
Another real task was..how to corner out friends…. Damn he mistakenly spilled out dis b’dy episode to them….n instead of helping him out with d plan,,,, they started planning out their own party…
N manish couldn’t refuse…afterall he is d one with a lady on his side…. N it was pretty easy…. A bottle of romonov..is more than enough to make them dance[ ironically in their respective rooms… celebratin fren’s gf’s b’dy….]
So …finally d day came.. and manish all pumped up…got up as early as 5.30 am, shaved twice, bathed thrice…. N changed clothes like a new born baby does…. Obviously for some other important reasons.
And by d grace of god….d day started well..d way it was planned. Everything was going well until that scene came in d movie(which they were watching together hand in hand)……. It changed d stage.so, now onwards ,,,I m going to present both manish n dimple in real conversation mode…….
[Dimple suddenly raises from her seat… n signled manish to follow her………it took manish by complete surprise…. As if he was just pulled off from deep sleep……. He was freezed in his seat.. unable to decide…what to do….]
Manish : what? Where r u going? Movie isn’t finished as yet……!!
Dimple : plz don’t ask mea nything,,, now we r not watching this movie anymore…
Manish : not watching dis…………… y ? I mean………………what happened?
Dimple : trust me I have a damn important thing to discuss,,,,
Manish : right now ,,, r u sure?i mean it can b done later on…I have spent a lot of money for dis
Corner seat….
Dimple : oh…. Money !! is that so !! okk den I m going.you better enjoy your movie n your corner
Seat….GOOOD BYE!!
[ manish realized what a big mistake it was… how can he… he shouldn’t have mentioned money… but there was no way back….. he was fumed over himself… he shouldnt have said that without knowing d matter….. so he got up n simply followed her….]
{they kept walking for a while… without uttering a single word……. Meanwhile manish was busy figuring out what it was in that movie scene which propelled her to take such a step……}
Manish : hey, honey you were to say something….!!
Dimple : yupp !!
Manish : your silence is killing me …plz… tell me whats d matter.
Dimple : look manish I just realized that even a perfect love happens between two people who r not perfect…coz none is perfect…………………………………………………….[silence]
Manish : so?
Dimple : so .. what do you think about it…I mean about me…..?
Manish : man ,,, dis is it,,, dis is why u have screwed dis whole plan….
{he gave a look, as if he has accidently smelled shit}
Dimple : ……………………………[silently walks]
[Manish realized its her b’dy today and things should not go dis way….. so he decided to break d ice ]
Manish : what sort of qus is that baby… I mean none is perfect,, not even me,, none around is perfect….
Dimple : I know all dis,,, but I am talking about myself honey…don’t u see dat.
Manish : sweety u too r a human being…and no human being on dis earth is perfect……
Now please don’t ask me …. What exactly is not perfect with you. Because I m no good to ans this qus.
Dimple : { gave a surprised look}….. do u mean to say that….u don’t even bother to know about your
Girlfriend.
Manish : hey common .. I don’t mean dat.
Dimple : I know what u mean. U r no less than other boys….
Manish : heyy I m sorry…. But its lik so damn difficult a thing for me. Honey there may be a dozen odd things about u… but I just happen to love them all…
Dimple : well thats really sweet of u manish….but I really wanna know… there must be atleast a single thing about me which u would like to change about me…
[manish realized he was in a deep trouble…..on one side he cant hurt his gf…n other side it was she herself, who is making him do so….. how can he say anything….. infact he really liked her every single thing… never found anything… odd… even if there are some… he just luv them all]
Manish : honey…. If dis is it… den I must say… I would like to change your name……..
Dimple : name……………. my name…….u mean u don’t like my name………
My god!! I cant believe dis…..she started sobbing uncontrollably
[Manish felt himself in deep shit….. how come he could make her sob her on her b’dy…….. but he couldn’t figure out what to say..]
Manish : sorry sweety… please don’t cry…. Otherwise I will start crying… will it look nice.. a boy crying
Dimple : u know what happens to be the first thing..which I really liked in you….. it was your name……Its ur name which excites me to the seventh sky…it brings up the whole innocent face of u
Live in my mind……and I m like ecstatic……no matter how worse d situation is around.these few words hold no less importance than a god to me.
And u…….. u don’t like my name…… I mean how u can even fall in love with a girl… whose very first thing that u got to know, u dint like…….
I m feeling like someone has been fooling around me…… ………… oh god…..
[n what followed was a pool of tears….. both of them were sobbing……………………….finally manish realised dat he has to speak, he cant let this day end like this.]
Manish : hey….i m sorry..but dis is not what I meant…I never felt that your name is outdated.. I
never hesitated to mention your name to any of my friend or anyone……its just a little secret of me…. Which made me say that I want to change your name.
[dimple was heartbroken…she kept sobbing….]
Manish : please stop crying …for my sake ..please…. u know while I was growing up… I always was a
shy kid.. always hesitated to talk to any girl….. I never had a girlfriend…. But I was a boy
within… I used to envy everyone around who were in love….so much so that even one sided love stories used to be quite frustrating for me……there was no way out… slowly I started to fancy about my girl my dream girl….. who would just come n will change my world. I gave her a name, gave her an identity… gave her everything that made her real in my imagination. I even used to talk to her for hours n hours…. N I promised her that if any girl would come in my life I will give her dat name…. so that I can actually feel that see has been with me all dese years…. Then u came in my life. I m so thankful to god for that.
U changed all d meanings of my life… u r d one.. who is my dreamgirl. I always wanted to give you that name….. so that I can give u all my past life, when u was not with me.
[ dimple was so touced to hear all this that, she couldn’t utter a single word… she just came forward n hugged him tight n both of them kept crying for a while…..]
Dimple : oh my god !!
Why , u dint tell me that before.
I m so lucky to have you in my life,I cant believe u love me so much.
Manish : thank god…. U know it now…..
Don’t u want to know…what dat name is?
Dimple : oh ya… please tell me, I m dieing to hear that…. It would be d most amazing b’dy gift of my life….
Manish : all dose years when u wasn’t with me…. I used to call u ANGEL…. My angel…..
Dimple : oh dats so so sweet…..
Manish : is it so….. its because I m d cutest boy in d world……..i bet.
Dimple : yes u r d cutest one n I m d luckiest girl in d world …………….. thanks for being there in my life.
N to make my life ………………life.